Thoughts about leaving

This going to abroad for 4 months thing is really not my¬† kind of thing at all. I am a person who always wants to know everything beforehand. How things are done and what is the right way to do things. I’m terribly afraid of failure and I don’t like to try new things if I don’t know what is expected of me. I like rules and structure and boring stuff. It makes me feel safe and in control of the situation. Why on earth am I going to Taiwan?

I already pity my travel companion, since he is the one who will see the worst part. I like travelling alone because then it doesn’t matter how many times I check the timetable or my tickets or the flight gate or time or what ever. Once in Amsterdam I checked five times that I was going to the right platform while waiting for the train. In worst cases I check something and walk couple of steps just to turn around and check it just one more time to be sure. Luckily my travel companion is maybe the most relaxed guy I have ever met.

All in all.. Even though this is not something I usually do or maybe just because that is the case, I’m really excited. I trust that I will learn a lot. Not just about school stuff but about life and myself. Sometimes you just have to go to places and situations you are not comfortable with. Otherwise evolving doesn’t happen. What is the point of being the same all the time if there is a chance to be better?

kalenteri

8 days!