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First week accomplished!

I left from Finland about a week ago. How I feel? Confused.. I have been having this vacation feeling because we don’t have that many classes at the moment. We have had time to see stuff, hike, walk, eat, adventure.. You know, the basic holiday stuff. Today I realized that after couple of weeks this feeling will probably go away. When the real deal starts. It is a bit scary.. It means that I have to accept that I’ll have my boring weekday routine, just like home. Actually I don’t know.. This is all just a bit confusing at the moment. I feel like I don’t want to have a routine and basic weekday stuff, but having everyday adventure for 3 monts will be a hard task to accomplish.

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Chiang Kai-Shek Memoriall Hall entrygate.

Am I energetic enought to change my daily routine from what I have at home? I hope so. I’m boring at home. But maybe I’m demanding a bit too much from myself. If I continue this, I will just stress about having fun. Sounds reasonable right? 😀 Well, that is me. Usually I have one or two things I stress about, without any real reason.

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“the Battleship” rock from Mt. Junjianyan.

It will be interesting to see what happens!

Thoughts about leaving

This going to abroad for 4 months thing is really not my  kind of thing at all. I am a person who always wants to know everything beforehand. How things are done and what is the right way to do things. I’m terribly afraid of failure and I don’t like to try new things if I don’t know what is expected of me. I like rules and structure and boring stuff. It makes me feel safe and in control of the situation. Why on earth am I going to Taiwan?

I already pity my travel companion, since he is the one who will see the worst part. I like travelling alone because then it doesn’t matter how many times I check the timetable or my tickets or the flight gate or time or what ever. Once in Amsterdam I checked five times that I was going to the right platform while waiting for the train. In worst cases I check something and walk couple of steps just to turn around and check it just one more time to be sure. Luckily my travel companion is maybe the most relaxed guy I have ever met.

All in all.. Even though this is not something I usually do or maybe just because that is the case, I’m really excited. I trust that I will learn a lot. Not just about school stuff but about life and myself. Sometimes you just have to go to places and situations you are not comfortable with. Otherwise evolving doesn’t happen. What is the point of being the same all the time if there is a chance to be better?

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8 days!