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Honeymoon is over!

That was fast! After all the great feeling about my clinical practise last week, I had some not so good ones this week. For starters I had my first patients in the clinic. Practice patients only, they were my tutors, but the way this is done here came to me as a bit of a shock. When intern here has his/her first patients there is no teacher to help. Student is expected to do the treatment from the beginning to the end by his-/herself and if there is something they don’t know, then they discuss about it with the teacher afterwards or go to check it out by themselfs (if they are afraid of asking the teacher). This includes taking the history, observing the patient, assessment, treatment and home exercise. In finland we have the teacher standing by our side and helping every time when we don’t know something or don’t know how to do something and they can also prevent us to do any harm to the patient. I have had two of these situations now and they are highly stressful and I don’t have any confidence to my level of knowledge. There is good sides too. I’m forced to think about the situations myself and try to connect all the symptoms and see through the secondary ones to the one that is really causing everything. Still, for me this is extremely difficult and I get a huge rise of my stresslevel in these situations. Again, there is also good sides. After the second one (that went a bit better than the first one) I got a huge feeling of success because I have had some effect to the symptoms. Only with my thinking and performing some treatment. Ha!

Other PT’s sometimes ask me to do some small tasks to help them out. This is really nice! I can do some simple things I know how to perform, not only stand around and watch.

In addition there is my bedside practise. Oh, how I love the bedside. I know how to perform treatment and I feel that I learn every day something. I can be relatively independent in some of the tasks and my teacher is amazing! She is also really strict and asks me to write a lot of patient data. Which is a good thing and I learn a lot, but it takes so much time! This week I have been to the library after the clinical training every day at least for an hour and yesterday I had to wake up a bit earlier so that I had time to finish my assignments. Trying to concentrate to learn over 10 hours a day is really challenging and doesn’t work out for a long period of time. At least not for me. So when my last day on the bedside was over yesterday, I felt both sad and relieved.

If I would neet to study here for the whole 4 years I think I would have a heart attack. Or a peptic ulcer. Or a panic disorder. Or all of them.. I don’t cope well with stress.

Even thought this week has been.. challenging.. I think I’m still learning a lot and I’m still enjoying my time here.

First week accomplished!

I left from Finland about a week ago. How I feel? Confused.. I have been having this vacation feeling because we don’t have that many classes at the moment. We have had time to see stuff, hike, walk, eat, adventure.. You know, the basic holiday stuff. Today I realized that after couple of weeks this feeling will probably go away. When the real deal starts. It is a bit scary.. It means that I have to accept that I’ll have my boring weekday routine, just like home. Actually I don’t know.. This is all just a bit confusing at the moment. I feel like I don’t want to have a routine and basic weekday stuff, but having everyday adventure for 3 monts will be a hard task to accomplish.

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Chiang Kai-Shek Memoriall Hall entrygate.

Am I energetic enought to change my daily routine from what I have at home? I hope so. I’m boring at home. But maybe I’m demanding a bit too much from myself. If I continue this, I will just stress about having fun. Sounds reasonable right? 😀 Well, that is me. Usually I have one or two things I stress about, without any real reason.

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“the Battleship” rock from Mt. Junjianyan.

It will be interesting to see what happens!